Playback, and Reminisce♥

HAPPY (& CHINESE) NEW YEAR EVERYBODY~~~ :D May we huat huat in this dragon year and most importantly, stay healthy and happy <:

but i doubt anyone reads this space anymore...? ): nevermind shall just post to entertain myself a bit.. :B

Anyway recently I'm  addicted to one Kelly Clarkson's song, very sad melody and I think the lyrics quite well written leh. Don't know why I just like emo and acoustic songs a lot a lot... wonder when i can ever play a full song on a guitar! hmph, don't understand why i can be just a bummer and lazy pig sometimes eh, i mean i can just coop myself in the room for the whole day one leh ): need to be someone who works towards my goal or smth, can't live my life being so aimlessly )':<! By the way, my right eye has been itching so badly for so many days leh, hopefully it's not some infection.. Am determined to sleep earlier today, cannot afford to sleep at 3/4am everyday and live my life with a weakened body day by day.. </3

To end off, here's the lyrics of my recent favourite song: Breaking your own heart by Kelly Clarkson



Shaking your head like it's all wrong
Before you're here you're already gone
And even with the light all around you
You're all alone in the dark.
You're breaking your own heart
Taking it too far down the lonely road
You say it's just one love
But when it's close enough you just let it go

The very thing you've been the most afraid of
You've been doing it from the start, breaking your own heart.
Too many tears, too many falls
It's easy to hear behind these walls
But you don't have to walk in the shadows
Life is so hard.

You're breaking your own heart
Taking it too far down the lonely road
You say it's just one love
But when it's close enough you just let it go
The very thing you've been the most afraid of
You've been doing it from the start, breaking your own heart.

You're breaking your own heart.
It's not too late, I'm still right here.
If only you let go of your fears.
You're breaking your heart
Taking your own heart down the lonely road
You say it's just one love
But when it's close enough you just let it go
The very thing you've been the most afraid of
You've been doing it from the start, breaking your own heart.
You're breaking your own heart


Cheers everyone and hope 2012 will be a good year for all of us, <3


 

Emo mode turns on ): the following weeks are gonna be so so so packed and i really wonder how i am going to pull it through. I will officially end school on the 28th Feb (last paper: LAB!!) Gonna experience all the mixed feelings all over again: the uncertainty, unknown, unexpected.. 

Sigh. i need a breather. I need better time management (i know i'm always complaining about it in every post.. ), i need a better brain ): i need more self-confidence. I need faith. I am so sick and tired of disappointments and regrets. 

Can't i just be more discipline? ):


I just wanna be alone tonight.

I know i know, this space is dead. Haha, but i'm really really lazy to update it so frequently and not as if anyone is going to read it anyway!

But i realised i am always here at the wrong time. Especially when i'm supposed to be studying for exams that are in 3 days' time, and i hardly started on any of them! I am so lazy and have ZERO level of self-discipline):

yada yada.. I really hate the fact that i only know how to grumble grumble, but not doing much to make myself feel better ): hai. Okay, just let me grumble somemore before i try to get some work started okay. haha

By the way, so not looking forward to internship ): especially i'll be stuck in the office and doing nothing but dex entry and probably those office work.. But hopefully i can make full use of the internship to get a Pass with Commendation :D! The teachers made it sound so easy to get it, but i hope i won't disappoint myself and them..

Alright, to those having exams now, study hard and i hope yall have lotsa self-discipline to keep yourself occupied with nothing but only studying kay! Don't end up like me): hahaha, good luck~

Was just looking at some of the pictures taken during year 1.. Can't believe i'm already year 3 now and will be graduating next year :O

Who knows, what the future holds?

I'm losing my heart and faith in everything i do..

Just an empty shell, without soul.

I just want my old self back.

)':

It sucks to be stuck at reports and projects when submissions are nearing.

I am seriously feeling very very very very tired. There are so many things that need to be done and i don't think i have the time since i'm such a slow and stupid worker. I hope the sense of urgency will keep me going for the next two weeks, and make me be more disciplined. I must must learn how to manage my time properly, if not i don't think i will be able to survive. 

 
I am really, very tired.

Sorry guys, i seriously need a space to rant. Why am i always so slow in everything. So slow in walking, so slow in eating, so slow in thinking, so slow in getting jokes, so slow in doing work. Why can't i be fast and efficient ):

I feel so bad that all my groupmates are almost done with their report and waiting for me to finish it. I feel so so so so bad. Why do i always do last minute work? And why can i only work better at the very last minute-.- so contradicting and yes, i always contradict myself.

WHY CANT I JUST FOCUS AND GET MY WORK DONEEEEEE! Hai, i've lost all the confidence i used to have in my work and in everything i do. I don't think i was like that. Or maybe i was but didn't realized it only till now. Or maybe i was like that but it just got worseeeeeee.

Lord, please submission is due in less than 48 hours. I really need to speed up and finish up everything.

I'm truly sorry guys): hai.

Came across this video from my friend while i was at facebook. Daughtry's got low, husky and sexy voice:D! Woooo, i like his version!

Yes, last friday was results day and gpa dropped like crapzxzxz! ): Uh lord, please let me learnt this lesson and make me more motivated to work harder and do well for the next sem! *praysssss*

Went for this damn cheap manicure at fareast today. $3 student promotion + $3 for shaping! So happy:DDD, finally got my nails painted the Nude colour that i wanted, hope it can last long enough for my taiwan trip, ha. And anyway, just feel like introducing my cute and sweet bedroom slippers to y'all, HAHA!  Mommy got it for me when she went to cameron highland with my sis ^^

  

And and and, i finally got a new camera:D wheeee! The 3rd one i have so far, (lost the first, spoilt the second:o) so please pray that i won't misplace or mistreat (ha!) it again! Mom paid for it cause we needed one for our taiwan trip anyway. So this is it, my new Fujifilm finepix f72 EXR. Nice not?! :D



Holidays so far:
- Swensens 1-for-1 lunch with Seet, then baking with Seet, Sing and lpl @ lpl's house
- Shopping with losers at Town, and only Town-.-
- Teo heng-ed with S.G.U
- Stayed home
- Jogged with Gerv around our estate and at TPY stadium. Finally after so longgg
- Worked for the Anlene Bone Health Check event

Haven't been very interesting but better than staying at home and doing nothing. Hahaha, well tmr will be another stay home day cause i was tasked to plan the itinerary for the Taiwan trip and have to pack abit of the luggage before my mom nags.

Some peeks to make this post more interesting:



 

Rach's 19th Birthday celebration @ Resort World, then B&J restaurant @ Dempsy Hill, then Teo heng!


Baking + Webcamwhored @ Lpl's!
Many commented that our muffins were yummy:D  yayyyy, more baking sessions yea peepz? haha!

Alright, supposed to sleep at 2.45am but dragged until now-.- Kay, shall aim to sleep by 4am. Argh, really need to get rid of this unhealthy sleeping habit): On a random note, i'm getting excited for my Taiwan trip though i wasn't feeling much for the past few weeks.

Goodnight, Sleep tight, and don't let the bedbugs bite <3!